am I cursed that women fall in love with me at the worst possible times in my life? my heart just isn’t open right now. I feel so bad for her. I know that look, I know those actions, I know that dedication… sorry girl. I’m not making that mistake again…
I still have a lot of deep scars that I still have to work on healing and I refuse to have you fall victim to my past. I destroyed someones love and dedication for me because of that shit before and I won’t do that again…
those scars that I have are deeper than I thought and I’m still moving forward. eventually they will b closed and ill be100% again and who knows.. maybe ill feel differently for you then. but for now… just not happening girl..
Get well Jeremy, we need you. Above all your story inspired me, refreshed and accelerated my desire to reach my goals in life.
I miss you girl, i kno you can read this. I need more time but i’m slowly being myself again :). We don’t have a’lot of time left but i promise we’re gonna end it good. I hope youre doing your thing and progressing.
I won’t let myself end where I started, I won’t let myself finish where I began. I know what is within me, Even if you can’t see it yet. Look me in the eyes, I have something more important than courage, I have patience. I will become, what I know I am.
I’m neither happy nor unhappy (phew). I’m somewhere in the middle. Leaning a small bit towards unhappy I must admit, but not close though. I don’t feel that burden and headache anymore, I just feel… Stagnant. It’s not necessarily a bad thing. I’m stagnant but open. Open and willing. Willing and focused. Focused and stronger. I feel stable and my mind is clear now.
Previously, my mind was loaded and clouded. Decisions were made based on my emotional needs rather than my progressive standards. I’m not awfully prideful nowadays but my decisions are natural and they put me above the other person while retaining my good will and principles. I’m more balanced now. I have my moments where the past comes back and plagues me but they’re just that… moments.
I’ve leveled the field and laid a pretty solid foundation… All that’s left to do is to build on it :).
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